Song: Thoughts at My Husband's Funeral

Thoughts at My Husband’s Funeral is one of the most personal tracks on my album It’s Always You. I wrote it because I believe Christian wives need an honest way to voice the deep emotions that come when their husband dies. Grief has a way of leaving us speechless, as if language itself collapses under the weight of loss. My prayer is that this song gives words to those who feel they have none, and that in hearing it, a grieving heart can whisper, “Yes, that’s how I feel.”

LISTEN TO THE SONG HERE

It's track 11 on It's Always You

Of course, no two marriages are the same. Some wives may not resonate with the song, and that’s okay. It’s not meant to idealize marriage or pretend every story is free of brokenness. But for some, it captures the quiet beauty of decades together: raising children, enduring hardship, laughing in kitchens, holding hands through countless ordinary days. And when death intrudes, the grief is all the sharper because the bond was so strong.

The Bible doesn’t shy away from this kind of sorrow. Abraham wept at Sarah’s graveside (Genesis 23:2). David cried out when his son Absalom died (2 Samuel 18:33). Scripture acknowledges that death tears at us because it was never meant to be part of God’s good creation. Yet for those who belong to Christ, grief is never the final word. Paul reminds us that we do not “grieve as others do who have no hope” (1 Thessalonians 4:13). That’s the heart of this song: sorrow that is real, but woven through with hope.

Placed alongside the previous track on the album, Still Waltzing, this song becomes part of a larger story. Still Waltzing celebrates the longevity of marriage, the way couples who remain faithful to each other can look back over a lifetime of shared joys and struggles with gratitude. Thoughts at My Husband’s Funeral then carries that story to its temporary end, the moment when one chair sits empty, and yet the believer knows this is not the true end. There is the promise of reunion. Jesus Himself said, “Because I live, you also will live” (John 14:19). That means love in Christ does not end at the grave but is gathered up into eternity.

Marriage, in God’s design, always points beyond itself. Paul makes this clear in Ephesians 5:31–32: “Therefore a man shall leave his father and mother and hold fast to his wife, and the two shall become one flesh. This mystery is profound, and I am saying that it refers to Christ and the church.” Every faithful marriage is a living parable of Christ’s steadfast love for His people. That’s why the grief of losing a godly spouse is so profound. the picture has been so beautiful. But even then, the ultimate reality remains: Christ’s love never dies, and He will raise His own on the last day.

As I created this song, I thought about the countless stories I’ve witnessed as a pastor. I've seen widows who clung to Christ with tears in their eyes, men who stood by their wives’ graves and prayed through the ache, families who leaned on the hope of heaven in the darkest of hours. These moments remind me that faith is not an escape from grief but a way through it. Like Psalm 23 says, “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me.”

Thoughts at My Husband’s Funeral was created with the help of AI-powered tools, but its heart is deeply human. It is about memory, love, loss, and above all, hope. My desire is that this song would serve as both a lament and a prayer: a lament for what is lost and a prayer of trust in the One who will one day make all things new. If it helps even one grieving soul find words to say goodbye while clinging to the hope of reunion in Christ, then it has served its purpose.

LYRICS

[Verse 1]

Fifty-seven autumns, fifty-seven springs,

We’ve worn the gold of our wedding rings.

Raise little babies, finally watched them fly,

Held our grands while we wiped our eyes.

We had our little quarrels, overcame by His grace,

And every time the sun rose, I saw your gentle face.

[Chorus]

Till I see you again, I’ll walk in the light,

I know God will make the wrong things right.

Till I see you again, I won't give up

The Lord has overflowed my cup

I'll see you again in that happy land

But, for now, good-bye to my man.

[Verse 2]

We saw the waterfalls, drove across the hills,

Shared quiet memories, chased the thrills.

Remember those kitchen dances, always holding hands

Walking by the waves, our footprints in the sand

Your chair sits empty, feeling too alone—

But I know you’re safe at your new home.

[Chorus]

Till I see you again, I’ll walk in the light,

I know God will make the wrong things right.

Till I see you again, I won't give up

The Lord has overflowed my cup

I'll see you again in that happy land

But, for now, good-bye to my man.

[Bridge]

So I'll wake up each morning

Step by step, finding my way

You know I'll be thinking about you, honey

And miss you every day

[Chorus]

Till I see you again, I’ll walk in the light,

I know God will make the wrong things right.

Till I see you again, I won't give up

The Lord has overflowed my cup

I'll see you again in that happy land

But, for now, good-bye to my man.